Oral Fixations

 Oral fixations. I’ve always had so many of them. I sucked my thumb until I was WAY too old. I swish my drinks before I swallow them (this one’s weird, I know.) I’m always biting the inside of my cheeks until they bleed. I bite my nails, also until they bleed. And unfortunately, I smoke. 

I looked into this, and a lot of these things are linked to my autism. They are either stims or they have to do with sensory processing disorder. It’s super interesting after 32 years to be learning why I do some of the things I do. It’s like I’m finally meeting the real me after all of these years. Taking off the mask.

Oral fixation can be used to alleviate anxiety and stress which I think is so interesting. I know for a fact I bite my nails when I’m nervous, without even thinking about it. And then I get SO SAD when I realize they’re gone.

You know, I’m pretty certain I had Pika as a child, I often found myself eating things that weren’t food, like paper, playdoh a couple times, and some other things that we don’t have to discuss. Lol. Luckily, I switched to ice, and raw pasta. I could eat ice and raw pasta everyday. I love the sound, the crunch, the taste, everything about it. Especially elbow noodles, and the little ice cubes that are like little cubes, those are the best.

Until you read again.